Though the Lord is high, yet he has respect to every lowly, humbled sinner; but the proud and unbelieving will be banished far from his blissful presence. Divine consolations have enough in them to revive us, even when we walk in the midst of troubles.

And God will save his own people that they may be revived by the Holy Spirit, the Giver of life and holiness.

If we give to God the glory of his mercy, we may take to ourselves the comfort. This confidence will not do away, but quicken prayer.

Whatever good there is in us, it is God works in us both to will and to do. The Lord will perfect the salvation of every true believer, and he will never forsake those whom he has created anew in Christ Jesus unto good works.

Matthew Henry's Concise Commentary on Psalm 138:8

Thursday, May 12, 2011

WALLS

Walls. Fortresses. Guards. How many of us live behind these each and every day? I know I do. I know that the walls I have built around my heart are almost impenetrable. I know that today, at this time in my life, it seems like the walls I’ve built are not only keeping things out – protecting me from hurt and rejection, but they are also keeping me locked inside, preventing me from feeling.

I’m discovering that walls built to keep things out – also keep things in! I feel like, even now, I am living inside prison walls. It’s as though so many of life’s experiences, at least my life’s experiences, have affected me negatively. Each “bad” experience . . . each and every cruelty . . . every rejection, has entombed me – deeper and deeper inside these prison walls and I’m not sure if there is an escape!

To break down the walls, would be such a huge relief for me. The ability to be able to feel the beauty of God’s world, to trust that I will experience joy would be so wonderful. To believe that people are who they portray themselves to be instead of seeing them as “threats” to my well-being would be indescribable!

1 John 3: 18) Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. 19) This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence”

Gloom and Doom aside, I know that things will get better. I know that God will lead me out of the depth of my prison and I will be able to experience the “goodness” in this life. I know because I have faith and belief in God and His promises. Even when it feels like I am at the lowest point, I feel Him lifting me up again. I know that He brings people into our lives – into my life at the time I need them most.

I am seeing a Christian counselor and am discovering, with her help, things in my life that have led me to the place I am today – and how I can go on from here, better, healthier and more able to God’s plan for me.

It’s been a very long time since I have thought about and looked at experiences in my life and try to see how they “changed” me – whether for better or worse. Things that I had never thought about the affect they had at the time I experienced them. Things that seemed insignificant – but how they impacted my life!

I’m ready for healing. I’m ready to find my way back. I’m ready to find my purpose and be the woman that God wants me to be – a fully devoted follower.

I’ll get there because He will lead me there.

Romans 10:9) That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10) For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved. 11) As the Scripture says, "Anyone who trusts in him will never be put to shame."


In His Love and Blessings
annb
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